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+title: "Psychological challenges working on P2PRC"
+summary: Mental challenges I face when working on open source project I created called P2PRC. 
+date: 2021-06-22
+tags: ["P2PRC","Psychological"]
+author: "Akilan Selvacoumar"
+draft: false
+aliases: [/P2PRC_Psychological_1]
+weight: 2
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+Okay so P2PRC is a technical topic atleast for as it's about a peer to peer networks that is designed for computation. This post is about how I feel mentally working on this project. What I am talking about in post can be linked to how I feel working in 
+any of my personal projects. 
+
+At the current stage of P2PRC I have been trying to use free time
+on trying to build a binary that just works. I know it's being 
+optimistic but I am way over my head at many instances. The painful 
+part for me would be trying to figure how to socialize and get people interested in the project. 
+
+At the current moment P2PRC project is like me talking to myself. 
+Example I create an Issue , fix it and review my own code. It's like taking to yourself. This is fine initially but it just feels 
+extremely (i.e in kind words) lonely. No one is blame for this 
+but it's a true fact in my case simple as that. 
+
+I have no idea on why I keep working on this project. I guess 
+maybe it's just that I have fun doing it. The true fact is that it 
+is fun at times and really lonley at many times. As a hacker or
+Open Source developer (i.e call it whatever you like). The important thing would just be feedback and hopefully feeling 
+happy on what you built something stable.
+
+I promoised that I would continue this project for 3 more years and
+see how it continues from there. The project is at the very initial stages and very tough to say what would be it's fate. The aim of this was to be halping hand towards the main aim of creating a distributed game engine. But I am at the moment still on how a 
+game engine works.